Reality starts sinking in

Ok, I don't know if you can see it very well, but I'm in that picture. That's me marching around our football stadium with the Pride of Chelsea marching band (not named after me, it's the town). I'm the one sticking out my thumbs up and my piccolo the farthest one down the line with the hat. Is that enough description for you?

I got thinking about this on Sunday. My friend mentioned on her Facebook that she was sad and she didn't think she would be, but she is. She's a senior like me and in less than a month, we're going to be graduating high school.

Great things are ahead for us I know, but still I know how she feels. I'm sad too. I have 16ish more days of school left. I'm not really ready for high school to be over with. Actually I'm really scared. I don't like change. There are four seniors in my youth group graduating and I'm gonna miss them so much next year. Two of them are leaving the state and I don't know what it will be like without seeing them so often. I'll see them at church during breaks, but that's about it. This kinda makes me feel like crying.

I think reality is finally starting to sink in for all of us seniors. And it's not only starting to sink in. It's starting to hit us real hard. Many of us have been together since elementary school. At least those that have stuck around my town since then and haven't had to move away. This is such a change for everyone.

Reality is definitely hitting me hard because I'm the one who doesn't think I'm ready to leave high school. Some days I feel this way, while others I don't. One of my locker buddies made a comment about me yesterday. She said I'm the complete opposite of all the seniors in our school. Why? Because I actually want to come to school whereas most of the seniors have already checked out. Come on guys, we can make it a little further. I'm scared! But I know God will bring me through it.